The manifesto [761]

One thing that I would like for you to know about me is that I do with my entire being. Meaning that I love with my whole heart, I care with my entire soul, I withdraw with my entire mind. I allow for you to experience me as I am if I trust you completely but if proven wrong there is no way, shape, or form of access to me. See I’ve written this sort of manifesto to explain to you who the fuck I am. This isn’t Beyoncé belting “who the fuck do you think I am” because I’m not giving you the chance to wonder who or what you think your version of me is. I give you what I have, no more no less and if you drop the ball with that then I drop you. With all this said I want to make it abundantly clear that if you are deemed fit and well and of sound mind; I will love, fight, care, protect, protest, and riot for you until my very last breath. Arguably, this can be my fatal flaw or this could be my saving grace. Not too many people possess the will to love and care unbidden. Often times people are afraid, afraid of the vulnerability that lives naturally within them so they hide it under layers upon layers of pride and anger and hate and other egotistical nuisances. I don’t want to be like that but in the process of combating the norm I continuously get hurt; so much so that I shatter, often. I try to find ways not to but I struggle, so I try and explain myself but why should I.